Hey rockstars!

So it’s been a week since Rent Free Poem Week — it’s always such an emotionally exhausting time because I haven’t done that much reading comprehension since High School. The last week has been so rough. Work has been insane (nothing new there), but I’m also battling being sick 😦

Here’s the thing about me when I’m sick. I tend to act like a child. Every happy thing leaves my brain and body and I get mad depressed and whiny. I recognize this. It is one of my flaws. Self awareness is very important. But being sick SUCKS. Luckily it’s not covid or strep, and it’s also not the flu (no fever), it’s just the regular change of weather sickness I get every year. I thought I managed to avoid it this year because even though I was late in getting my flu shot and covid booster (oops, only got it a few weeks ago), this is the first time this season I’m sick! So I thought I would skip a year, but nope, it reared it’s ugly head. On top of that, for the first time in maybe 10 years, I lost my voice.

I never lose my voice. This might be shocking because I am a certified yapper, but I literally rarely lose my voice. Sometimes I try!! I try to scream my heart out at concerts and even then my voice is intact. But 2 days with a cough and cold and my vocal chords gave up. It’s been super awkward talking in calls because people can’t understand every 4th word I’m saying, so it leads to a lot of repeating myself and then, when all else fails, holding one finger up to the camera as I tell them to “hold one sec!” while I type what I’m trying to tell them.

But today I woke up to an email that made my day, work has been manageable (though all 5 of my cases are blowing up, and right now I had to message a partner that the assignment I would get him EOD will be pushed to EOSD — end-of-Sandhya-day, which is more like 3 or 4 am), and my voice is 80% back!!!

But alas, I’m on the up-and-up. Kind of. Baby steps.

So those of you who have the Co-Star app, know that it’s a (sometimes savage) horoscope app that tells you your dos and don’ts each day. This is mine today:

My Dont’s are easy — I don’t consciously mirror people, so check. Winks, I can barely do on my best day (it’s more like an awkward blink…), and I’m a full sugar girlie — no fake sweeteners for me.

But my Dos??? Starry Nights. Fairy Lights. French Gardens.

Sarah suggested, “fly to France for a production of Midsummer Night’s Dream.” If I had a PJ, then yes, I would have done that.

But really, this sounds like my dream proposal. Fairy lights/string lights?? Gardens?? Starry Nights? Though in fairness, I don’t think you would be able to see the starry nights with the amount of fairy lights I’m picturing in my head.

I told Divya, that “I’m pretty sure I’m supposed to be proposed to today” (future fiance of mine, October 9 is apparently the day!!)

But Divya said, “Omg that sounds like such a vibe I love it. Alternate universe sandhya is popping champagne right now.” But since this was at 4:55pm, she then realized “Or maybe it’s a nighttime proposal because of the stars. Rn she has no idea.”

Imagine. Alternate universe me was just sitting at 4:55pm chilling, and if she wasn’t doing what I’m doing in present universe me (working and daydreaming), then maybe she was on her way to a French Garden. When someone says French Garden I usually think of Versailles, but when I think of Proposal I think of Longwood. So let’s pretend that Longwood is only inspired by French Gardens and not the French and Italian gardens that it is actually inspired by. So maybe she’s on her way to longwood, no idea that later tonight (probably by the time I post this blog) she will be popping champagne.

I remember back in high school when I was an avid Tumblr user, I saw a post saying, “whenever you’re sad, just remember that in a parallel universe you’re married to your favorite celebrity” and that always made me feel better. Because I wonder what that version of Sandhya is doing — probably living her best life in some fancy af mansion with her fancy af cars and her fancy af husband. A girl can dream.

Alas, today it is now 9:30pm, and alas no Proposal. I also did not go to to garden.

But I did look out at the stars (and they are beautiful), and I did light the string lights in my room.

I’ll take 2/3. And I hope alternate universe Sandhya is popping champagne and celebrating with her fiance, her family, and her best friends.

And me? I’m now going to turn back to my to do list and daydream about my starry night – fairy light – French Garden fantasy. And maybe for fun I’ll pop a champagne later tonight and drink a glass while watching Gilmore Girls with my mom. There’s no reason why present universe Sandhya can’t have a great day too.

Until next time!

xo

Sandhya

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